Childhood. I miss it. So much.

As usual, I was scrolling down my FB news feed and then I saw a picture posted by my friend. I stopped, Hey I know that UNCLE!!!! I used to buy "Aiskrim Potong" from this uncle when I was in my primary school. I starred at the picture for minutes without realizing. That was more than 10 years ago. Tears filled my eyes. How I miss my childhood. I went to school just to see my friends, recess was spent playing and gossiping (that age itself), and the main agenda starts after school, JUNK FOOD SHOPPING TIME!! That is when we finish all up saved up pennies to get all sorts of chips, crackers and so on(SUPER RING, BIKA, APOLLO and etc.) And to get 20 cents "Aiskrim Potong" (corn flavoured: my fav) was a MUST!! Haishh! During my childhood, seriously, my biggest worry was just HOMEWORK. How when I get back home from school, first thing that I'll do is to sniff from outside the house itself what my mom has cooked for lunch. I'll eat until my stomach feels like bursting, then straight to bed for an afternoon nap (quite long one) with my mum. I wake up for my tea time, take my bath, pray, tv then straight to bed again. (That's why my homework was a worry to me!!) Sitting here, I feel helpless, how I wish I could have my childhood again.. I know TIME is not REVERSIBLE. If I was given a chance, I will not change anything in my past coz that was what that made me who I am today. But I can tell you, I was one naughty, weird & HAPPY kid who really enjoyed my CHILDHOOD! And that child is still in me and will always be. . .

Never JUDGE a man UNTIL you've walked in HIS boots!!

I used to be a person who judges someone quickly and if I have that one thing that I don't like about them, that will make to get annoyed with whatever they do and in the end, that might lead me to hate them. WHAT they did mattered to me most than WHY they did it.. Silly girl I was. Things really changed when people didn't understand why I did certain stuffs and then only I started to put myself in other person's shoes before judging them. That was when I was taken back and that changed the whole view about people that I had before. Yes, we will never know what a person went through that they are in that way if we never walked their journey.How hard will it be for the person that you are judging when you never knew what they went through. That is when I stopped judging people, I found the gold in them. The good heart that I have never knew before. How blind I was, covered with a shield called immaturity(And yes, that doesn't mean I'm matured now) All that glitters is not gold and often do we realize the gold that have been always there, right in front of our eyes.. Appreciate and love everyone as we are all one, HUMANS!!

FEAR is only a FEAR until you OVERCOME it!!

18th July 2012: Never knew that I will ever Bungy Jump! It was decided there and then. I still couldn't believe that I'm gonna jump although I was at the edge of the platform. When I was at the edge of the platform, I could not think of anyone else, the only thing that was on my mind was, should I turn back and walk away! Thank GOD my partner that went tandem with me was there to convince me that WE CAN DO IT! OMG, How I LOVE HER!! It took lots of courage to decide to JUMP and I did! Had TERRIBLE blood rush while falling down and I only opened my eyes when I heard my partner saying, "Don't close your eyes!!" Quickly, I opened my eyes and I enjoyed the BEAUTIFUL view, upside down! It was beautiful! Had three bounces before they pulled us up and somehow I managed to pull my red string and sit while I went up. When I stepped on the platform, my legs were shaking, I could not stop it, it was involuntary. All I can think of is, THANK GOD I did not walk away and I DID IT!! I felt so AWESOME that I could not describe it in words! And yeah, I walked away as a CERTIFIED JUMPER EXTRAORDINAIRE!! And this it it, I decided, I'm gonna try all the exciting challenges while I can! Woohooooo!!

New Year!! ~2012~

Another year! New Year! Actually it seems like just another day.. But it is what believe that we put in to this day makes it special. We take up new resolution, new aims, new habits leaving behind the old ones and lots of new things. This is what makes life interesting, if not, everyday will just be the same! Boring right?

I do have new resolutions, aims, etc:

1. To learn from my deadly mistakes that I did last year and not to repeat it! To be more cautious with people around me.

2. To LOVE and CARE more for my BELOVED ones.

3. I don't want to take any vows about STUDIES =P

4. Not to take up any bad habits.

5. And surprisingly, I want to try NEW things! I am so excited about that because I am a person who stays 1000 feet far away from trying new things! Gonna do something exciting this year, let's see what happens! =)

6. Last but not least, TO BE BETTER THAN BEFORE!

It may seem just like a fuss about the New Year but New Year feels nothing without all these stuffs right! Above all, I would really love to thank GOD for allowing me to see this WONDERFUL New Year of 2012. Hoping it to be a good year for everyone! =D

~My BEST FRIEND~

Best friend.. Everyone has a best friend.. Don't you?? I have few.. But I have only one BEST FRIEND that my LOVE FOR her is UNMEASURABLE..

She was with me since I was not even fully formed..

She is the reason I breathe..

She has never left me alone..

She gave everything that she had just for me..

She works hard so that I can live a happy life..

She never says NO to me..

She will always smile to hide sorrows in her heart so that I will never know..

She is my EVERYTHING..








She is the one who will always be there for you.. No matter in what condition you are, what you did, what you have said, THE ONE AND ONLY PERSON that will always embrace you forever is MUM.. AMMA.. She is the one.. My BEST FRIEND FOREVER!! My whole life wont be enough to show my love for her.. Missing her at this very moment madly..

~FRIENDSHIP~

A very subtle topic. Its very hard to define FRIENDSHIP.. In my 21 years of living , I have got hurt a lot , fell down, got up and still getting hurt because of FRIENDSHIP but I'm still moving on with my life. At first I really got confused. What is FRIENDSHIP then??

I had no one to explain.. Confused , still I was.. I was having the best of times with them until something terrible came up.. I tried my very best to hold my FRIENDS whom I love a lot.. I did , I really did.. But I didn't know where I went wrong.. Maybe it was my mistake, I agreed and I confessed but things did not seem to be the same.. Maybe they can't forgive me.. Maybe that's it.. I guess.. But I knew I did not do anything with the intention of hurting them.. Nobody understood me.. Damn hurt I was and this poor heart cried loudly but no one could hear..

But I thought, people choose to be with the people that they want. We cant force anyone to be with us although we want them to be with us.. After all , its their life right.. So they have their own rights to decide. They have their own reasons to not to choose to be with me.. I think I just have to learn to leave my friends on the path that they choose to be and move on with my life. I tried my best and I know that I will not regret later that I did not try to fix things up.

Yes, we have to get HURT in order to LEARN.. I have really learnt a lot.. Enough of tears.. And, I have decided, if my friends choose to stay in my life, I will WELCOME them with open arms.. But if they choose to LEAVE, I will bid them a GOODBYE with a BIG SMILE.. =)

Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara

Yes, LIFE is only for once and no matter what you do, you can never reverse the time nor start it all over again!!! Well, this is what I do in order to LIVE my LIFE!!

MISTAKES..

Mistakes are the most common ones in our LIFE.. It is when we do mistakes we really wish that we can FIX it. For me, I think MISTAKES are what causes us to LEARN and not to REPEAT the same thing again. When we are able to take each mistakes that we do as a STEPPING STONE, that is when we will stop REGRETTING and start LEARNING.

LIVE THE MOMENT THAT YOU HAVE!!

You can PLAN how you are going to live for the next forty years but the question is will you live to that far that you have planned? Nobody knows what will happen next right? We can plan and plan as mush as we want but GOD has greater plans for us. So why WORRY about the day that we don't know whether it exists? Thank GOD for each and every day that he has GRANTED you and cherish those moments that is in front of YOU!

LOVE EVERYONE AROUND YOU!!

PARENTS are the MOST PRECIOUS thing that I could name in the entire UNIVERSE. Only they will give everything that they have in order to give comfort and to fulfil their child's wish. My PARENTS will always be the ones that I give all my DEVOTION to. Give it all to your FAMILY and FRIENDS who were always there through your thick and thin. There is no HARM in giving your love to everyone isn't it? To GIVE and RECEIVE love to and from others gives you a good feeling. I just feel so LUCKY to have so much of them who loves me and those who appreciates my love! KILL all your ENEMIES!! Cause having enemies will give you nothing but more HATRED! Why do we need to create space for that?

EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON!!

I do and will always BELIEVE that everything happens with a reasonable reason behind it. Well I'm saying this from my EXPERIENCES. Till now, I have came across so many CHALLENGES and PROBLEMS in my life and at the end of each one, I will REALIZE a REASON behind it.. So it is WISE to think that each and every OBSTACLES gives us a BETTER situation. Would like to quote a remarkable statement by anonymouys, 'Problems are like washing machines, they TWIST us, SPIN us and KNOCK us around.. But in the END we come out CLEANER, BRIGHTER and BETTER than BEFORE!!! Isn't it so TRUE????!!!!

NEVER LOSE FAITH IN GOD!

He is the only ONE who will always be there to LISTEN to your problems no matter what time it is!! =P What you will have to do is just talk to HIM in your HEART. HE always listens.. Although he doesn't gives the SOLUTION there and then, HE will do it! You just have to BELIEVE that HE will never let go the person that TRUSTS him just like that.

LAST BUT NOT LEAST, SMILE ALWAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

No matter what life gives YOU, just SMILE and accept it as a new OPPORTUNITY to learn and to grow strong! SMILE and SMILE that even SORROWS are sick of it!!